Nostalgia

It has been 8 years since I recorded my first song. It featured one of my closest friends and hip hop mentor Prophecy (then Pricey). i remember my heart pounding through out the recording session. I stood in that booth with sweaty palms, nervous out of my mind, but is was the most liberating feeling ever. Watching a creation unfold. Felt like I was on top of the world.
Now it almost a decade later what has changed. I am no longer intimidated by a recording booth or any artist. I can go head to head with any rapper out there. I can now produce my own beats. As much as I feel I am more versatile, I feel less dominant. Where did it all go wrong?
I could not have a pen and paper in my hands and not scribble a verse or a couple bars. Lines upon lines and tunes played in my mind all day, everyday. I was tormented by having all these ideas and material to make music but no outlet as i was stuck in my high school hostel. I would save up pocket money for studio time on the holidays, just to get a chance to express myself in music form. Most around me could not understand the drive I had and some even called me crazy.
Over thirty songs later, award nominations, national television and radio guest appearances I found myself stuck somewhere in oblivion. The hunger, the zeal, the ideas and at times i fear even the passion is gone. So where it it all go wrong? Maybe life has got the better of me. Being a father and university creative arts student, maybe I have less mental time for my own artist creation. All i do is hope to have the feeling I had when I made Roll Deep in 2003 once again.
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